Thursday, September 26, 2013

I still haven't found what I am looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come Then all the colors will bleed into one Bleed into one But, yes, I'm still running .... You broke the bonds And you loosed the chains Carried the cross of my shame Oh, my shame, you know I believe it ...U2 ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ Nothing much has changed and yet many things have changed. I am wrestling with the future and trying to break free from the past. My hip and back (March 3rd ski crash) are about the same, but I have only recently started to try and strengthen the injured areas. Weight is still very high (235) and my fitness very low = a lot of run / walking. A few weeks back my good freind Richard and I hit a low point at about the same time and we have re-issued a fitness / weight loss challenge bet from years past. Funny we both weighed in at 241# that morning and reached out of the blue reached out to each other. Between now and January 31st - I have my rules of engagement that should drive some consistency in my daily routine. What am I looking for? A return to the origins of running for me? I started running to increase general fitness that would support all the other activities I love. But it is hard to break the bonds of trying to focus on running and racing. I guess we will see how the next 4-6 months play out. Can I learn to run for fun? Good running to all!